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i have this weird feeling inside right now. kind of when you like a boy. or maybe not even a boy but just someone. you think about them all of the time until they become so natural to you that they are inserted into your dreams and the thought of not knowing them and not having them captivate the audience in your mind is unimaginable. then something happens where it all seems to come together and make sense and fall apart. the illusions and the dreams that you had shatter and you wake up and you realize it will never work and it never could have worked. where there were once memories of happiness now exists a void that is so cold and barren and empty that it makes you realize you never wanted it to work anyway. you just wanted to get rid of that once again so familiar feeling.