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So today Cody told me that in about a week he will be leaving for Texas. I knew that this would be coming but I guess i just didnt want to believe it! I should be happy for him cuz hes goin for a good reason; but im not im just sad! Its like i cant really see him going and being gone all the time and everyday. Its only going to be for a month wich seems like a short time but its going to feel like a year! This is how i felt wen i moved i knew it was coming but i just felt like it wasnt going to like something was going to happen so i wouldnt have to move! I just couldnt see myself in another town but im here! And now the main friend i got the only friend i got out here is going to be gone for wut is going to feel like forever! I can see these things happening but i feel like i can stop them but I cant and then it hurts so much wen they hit me inside cuz its like i didnt see it coming! FUCK!! this is going to suck! What the fuck am I going to do all god damn summer?????? rrrrrrrrr!!!!!!! I should be preparing for wut is happening and not let it hit me like last time but i wont i know i wont he's going to be gone and thats it! I know he will be back its just so hard imaging him gone cuz hes always been around since i met him..........