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i'll be glad when everything at my old job is finalized and settled. i just want to get the payments that i am entitled to and get the hell out of there. i felt so unclean after my talk with the slave driver i wanted to scrub my skin and brain raw. i nearly walked out on her! she called my decision to take time off to regroup as "bailing out". she was the one who suggested it and put the offer on the table yet she has the nerve to criticize my personal decision and reasons. then she basically blamed me for the so-called predicament i now find myself in. bull! she didn't outright say it but i can read between the lines.
i'm insulted that she chose to confront me and lecture me but did not allow me to voice my opinions and explain myself, and was basically told to shut up and listen and not interrupt while she listened to her own voice for 2 hours. that's when i just lost it. she can't expect me to let her bad mouth me without hearing me out and letting me tell her what i think. she talks a big game about communication but fuck, she doesn't know the meaning of it. it works both ways and we're not just mindless machines that will follow your every command and try our hardest 'til you suck the life out of us to make money for you and receive what? an extra $2.00 for our hard work? fuck that!
i really regretted having to argue with her and losing my temper but when your hard work and dedication are being belittled, isn't your first instinct to defend yourself?
what sucks is that i really enjoyed the job during the first 3-4 months that i was there. before i got to know her better. i wanted to leave in good terms but what happened today leaves me no choice. she bad mouths her employers to one another and that's just wrong. i found out things that she has told the others about me and it pissed the hell out of me. why not just say it to my face? she's playing what she thinks is a clever psychological game but i am sooooo onto her. she also has favoritism even though she kept denying it.
the day i hand in my official resignation letter (which i hope i'll be able to do before the end of the month when i can finish replacing all my i.d.s), i'm going to let lose. i have so much dirt on her, there's no way she can refuse giving me my employee rights. i won't even bother asking her to be a future reference because i am completely sure that she now has nothing but bad things to say about me. the fact that she keeps hiring and firing people or have people quit on her nearly every month is also suspect. it just tells you that there's something wrong with the way she treats her employees and the way she runs her business. she doesn't deserve my understanding and my respect. she's cut off. cut off, i say!
the only good thing that i can say came out of this whole experience is that i have taken an interest on labor laws and employee rights and i intend to pass on what i learned to the other girls. they need to know. i can't let her take advantage of them like she took advantage of me. and if i find out that nothing has changed, i'll take this as far as it needs to go...the ministry of labor. dum, dum, duuuuuuum!
*end rant but not rage*
on a lighter note, i enjoyed the outing with sam and melbs. we always have an awesome time doing near-geek stuffs. hahaha. thanks for the distraction. *muah*