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Wow ive just read back through the whole of abis journal and its really scary, im very confused at the moment, i don't know anything, i feel im being not told everything.I know i love abi so so so much, and she makes me so happy, its like i was just sat out in the garden thinking of all the things we've ever done together and how we are building a relationship the whole time we are together, and how i was with her for her 16th, and how i can lkook back and say we have a history together and how we've been into town and been shopping, and how we've been out for meals and we've been around each others house so many times, and how i just never stop thinking about her. But the past sucks so much and i just hate thinking about it and im a twat for not letting it go, i mean i figuered that since we've left secondary school the past wud be forgotten, but i don't think it ever will be. I love abi so much, and i hate myself for not letting it go like most people wud, but i know i love abi so much and i know i love being in a relationship with her, and i love that we have so many things to do together in the future, like go to the beach, go on bike rides like we sed we'd do, and maybe even go to Italy (hey u never know), but i just want to be with her and do so many things with her, i hate the fact that the past still comes up every so often, and it sucks. but anyway i have just been outside and ive made a list of all the things that we have do together to remind me of how luck yi am to have my gorgous abi :
- Went into Taunton together and i got all nervous( and linked arms outside monsoon)
- Went into yeovil
- When abi intoduced me to shopping
- Went to the cinema where we kissed.
- Watched the sunset at burton monument (one of my favs)
- When abi came over for the first time
- When we slept together in the tent at joes party
- When we slept at bretts snuggled up to my gorgous girl
- When we walked grace
- When we ate tea with my family
- When we sat out on the grass by Jake's and made daisy chains
- When we went out to Tamborinos and we came back and we fell asleep together.
- When we sat outside and looked at photo's
- When we went for some milkshakes
- When Abi spilt her drink in mc'd's and made me chuckle
- When we kissed at Freds party
- When we went to weymouth together
- When we had our first pic taken together
- When we dresed up and went to jess's and S-J's party
- When we kissed for the first time at school
- When i went back to hers on the last day of school.
- When i realised i was in love
- When she kissed me on the cheek at Crothers's party
- When ive tried to teach her the piano
- When we first kissed in year 9
Ok so i then made a list of all the things that i WANT to do with abi in the future:
- Go to the beach for a day together
- Go swimming in the sea and do some surfing together
- Go on a bike ride together
- Go to college together
- Go on holiday together
- Be together at chirstmas time
- Teach abi to play the proper piano
- Go and sit in the sun at ham hill together
- Have abi over for a Barbeque in the summer
- Be with abi for my 16th
- Spending valintines day together
- When abi gave me a tour of her house
- Drinking hot chocolates at her house
- Spend a long time together
- Be best friends together
And i cud go on but id be forever, but i know i do love her so much. She means the world to me.