you keep me hanging on
well the gig went smoothly,except for senile, so different to their cd that i heard. without being harsh CRAP is all i can describe their live show as right now.
im in a bit of an odd mood at the moment,was really down last nite and then had an accident when i was on my way down to kelleighs. some cab driver decided to indicate he was turning half way thru the turn so im goin across the road on my bike and some woman was crossing the road too. and as he hadnt indicated earlier i went across the road and then had to swerve to avoid him, bike wouldnt make it up the curb and i half fell off and hurt my leg,ah well.
ive cheered up slighly today, altho everyone seems to be capable of getting a job except me and no one has any time for anything. i guess i feel left behind what with everyone getting jobs and me stuck doing nothing. i just wanna spend time with my friends/girlfriend etc but i dont know what to do,time to face up to the fact im entering the real world maybe? altho i think im not gettin a job offer cos im goin back to do another course at college in september
arrrrgggggghh without sounding like a goth who's angry at life and thinks everything sucks...... i wish life was easier or at least slightly more generous.
ive lost 2 people i normally go out with but thats no great loss, whenever we went down the pub those2 would pair up to take the piss outta me, i know they are insecure about everything but why me?! ah well better off without, just need something else, another band maybe? i would like to start a ska band in the vein of madness/the specials and move out because here its just mental, its arguments galore,whinging complaining etc etc and its just causing me to stress unnecessarily
and im no fun for myself or anyone when im down/stressed etc. i guess the way im feeling right now can be quoted from a song "maybe one day i'll be happy, til then i'll stay the same, things are going well I can't complain, but i feel like a change"
v.relevant to me at this moment.in a way im glad i have a live journal, ive read some that suck but i spose its given me somewhere to vent every concern i have and i have the opportunity for people to read it and maybe see where im coming from, if not no one reads it but at least by writing all this i've been able to think properly about and come to some sort of conclusion or at least now feel better for getting it off my chest.
anywho its taken me from 2.55 to think and type this down its now 3.15 so i'm gonna leave it at this,finish what i was doing,then go to the pub to drink a lot and get even more down,o joy
im in a bit of an odd mood at the moment,was really down last nite and then had an accident when i was on my way down to kelleighs. some cab driver decided to indicate he was turning half way thru the turn so im goin across the road on my bike and some woman was crossing the road too. and as he hadnt indicated earlier i went across the road and then had to swerve to avoid him, bike wouldnt make it up the curb and i half fell off and hurt my leg,ah well.
ive cheered up slighly today, altho everyone seems to be capable of getting a job except me and no one has any time for anything. i guess i feel left behind what with everyone getting jobs and me stuck doing nothing. i just wanna spend time with my friends/girlfriend etc but i dont know what to do,time to face up to the fact im entering the real world maybe? altho i think im not gettin a job offer cos im goin back to do another course at college in september
arrrrgggggghh without sounding like a goth who's angry at life and thinks everything sucks...... i wish life was easier or at least slightly more generous.
ive lost 2 people i normally go out with but thats no great loss, whenever we went down the pub those2 would pair up to take the piss outta me, i know they are insecure about everything but why me?! ah well better off without, just need something else, another band maybe? i would like to start a ska band in the vein of madness/the specials and move out because here its just mental, its arguments galore,whinging complaining etc etc and its just causing me to stress unnecessarily
and im no fun for myself or anyone when im down/stressed etc. i guess the way im feeling right now can be quoted from a song "maybe one day i'll be happy, til then i'll stay the same, things are going well I can't complain, but i feel like a change"
v.relevant to me at this moment.in a way im glad i have a live journal, ive read some that suck but i spose its given me somewhere to vent every concern i have and i have the opportunity for people to read it and maybe see where im coming from, if not no one reads it but at least by writing all this i've been able to think properly about and come to some sort of conclusion or at least now feel better for getting it off my chest.
anywho its taken me from 2.55 to think and type this down its now 3.15 so i'm gonna leave it at this,finish what i was doing,then go to the pub to drink a lot and get even more down,o joy