Alright, I guess it's time to update...
yeah, I know its been a while...
So, I'm sititng on my new princess bed and playing on my computer that has just been set up in my bedroom (Yay!) and I'm watching one of the most ridiculous episodes of Blind Date. Wow, I think I may actually have to change the channel...anyway, so since I've last written in this bad boy a WHOLE lot has happened. Most importantly, I graduated college!! I can't say that it feels like I have in the slightest. What does my future hold? Who the hell knows. I'm trying to get into the masters program at University of New Haven for the fall. An alumni has told me that there is no way I shouldn't get accepted, but I'm definately not going to assume until it hopefully happens. I really hope that I am accepted and it all works out because the program sounds amazing AND I could have my master's degree two months after turning 23. That just seems ridiculous. With a master's, all the positions I have been looking into wouldn't seem so far out of my league, either. I dunno, I don't think I'm ready to be done with school. I've been going straight through since spring semester of my sophmore year, summers, winters...It's been over 2 1/2 years since I took a break from school. It just feels strange now that I'm not in a class and not having to get some sort of school work done. blah blah blah, i'm rambling...
Moving on...Beth, Mike and I went to Long Island last night to see a show at The Downtown. It was a really cool venue, not really a bad spot (unless the person in front of you is too tall and keeps swaying into you line of sight) and just kinda cool. The VIP section had all these tables built out of guitar drums, I thought that was creative. Anyway, we saw Akiva (my best friend according to Beth), Toby Lightman (Mike's new girlfriend) and half of Josh Kelley's set. I thought it was great. I love watching Akiva play live because he always looks like he's having a great time and he makes the most ridiculous faces while he's singing. Ha ha, I guess that's the criteria for being a good artist! We talked to him and Simon for a few minutes after the show and got a picture taken. Mikey bought Toby's cd, had it signed and had a picture taken with her. It came out really cute. Oh, and just so you know (BETH), he sent an email thanking all of us for coming and said he hung out on Josh's tour bus last night after the show. AND I talked to him online again today and he says if he's ever big enough for a tour bus, we all get backstage passes! He's playing another show at The Downtown on June 19th, Saturday night this time and invited to hang out after the show. Ha ha ha, road trip?
Hehe, and continuing...went to Dad's house today to try and fix up the place to try and get it to sell faster. He's really upset about the house falling through so many times. I can't really say that I blame him. They really need to sell that house in order to pay for the new one. I kinda feel like they got a little ripped off with the house. I mean it is a really nice house and it is larger than either of the houses they own now. It's only a few years old and on a brand new street. But, I feel like it doesn't all add up to the price they are closing on. I guess I just don't know much about real estate. Going sort of on a tangent, I'm not sure how I'm feeling about my dad and Helen getting married and moving in together. I don't know what it is, but every time I feel as though I am getting to a "good place" with the whole situation, something shoots it back down. My dad is so totally stressed out right now. I know that there is a lot going on with the whole house situation, but he seems hard core stressed. Even though he tried talking to me about it today, I feel like he's not telling me everything. I've been getting that feeling too much lately. Is this what's supposed to happen? Is this really because we were so close for so long and now I am, to an extent, being replaced? Is the child of divorce ever really "fixed" or are we always stuck in a place where we feel some sort of void, some sort of unsatisfying "closure"? Sometimes I just want to say "what the hell", but I don't think any answer I would ever get, would ever be even close to fulfilling. Ugh, this is no way to end an entry...
So my last thoughts for the evening, what the hell am I supposed to do with Kyle for 3 hours on monday? I am picking him up from school while dad and Helen are at the closings. I have no f-ing clue what to do with a 13 year old boy whom I have nothing in common with for 3 whole hours. So, I am taking suggestions!
Night all, dream something sweet...
So, I'm sititng on my new princess bed and playing on my computer that has just been set up in my bedroom (Yay!) and I'm watching one of the most ridiculous episodes of Blind Date. Wow, I think I may actually have to change the channel...anyway, so since I've last written in this bad boy a WHOLE lot has happened. Most importantly, I graduated college!! I can't say that it feels like I have in the slightest. What does my future hold? Who the hell knows. I'm trying to get into the masters program at University of New Haven for the fall. An alumni has told me that there is no way I shouldn't get accepted, but I'm definately not going to assume until it hopefully happens. I really hope that I am accepted and it all works out because the program sounds amazing AND I could have my master's degree two months after turning 23. That just seems ridiculous. With a master's, all the positions I have been looking into wouldn't seem so far out of my league, either. I dunno, I don't think I'm ready to be done with school. I've been going straight through since spring semester of my sophmore year, summers, winters...It's been over 2 1/2 years since I took a break from school. It just feels strange now that I'm not in a class and not having to get some sort of school work done. blah blah blah, i'm rambling...
Moving on...Beth, Mike and I went to Long Island last night to see a show at The Downtown. It was a really cool venue, not really a bad spot (unless the person in front of you is too tall and keeps swaying into you line of sight) and just kinda cool. The VIP section had all these tables built out of guitar drums, I thought that was creative. Anyway, we saw Akiva (my best friend according to Beth), Toby Lightman (Mike's new girlfriend) and half of Josh Kelley's set. I thought it was great. I love watching Akiva play live because he always looks like he's having a great time and he makes the most ridiculous faces while he's singing. Ha ha, I guess that's the criteria for being a good artist! We talked to him and Simon for a few minutes after the show and got a picture taken. Mikey bought Toby's cd, had it signed and had a picture taken with her. It came out really cute. Oh, and just so you know (BETH), he sent an email thanking all of us for coming and said he hung out on Josh's tour bus last night after the show. AND I talked to him online again today and he says if he's ever big enough for a tour bus, we all get backstage passes! He's playing another show at The Downtown on June 19th, Saturday night this time and invited to hang out after the show. Ha ha ha, road trip?
Hehe, and continuing...went to Dad's house today to try and fix up the place to try and get it to sell faster. He's really upset about the house falling through so many times. I can't really say that I blame him. They really need to sell that house in order to pay for the new one. I kinda feel like they got a little ripped off with the house. I mean it is a really nice house and it is larger than either of the houses they own now. It's only a few years old and on a brand new street. But, I feel like it doesn't all add up to the price they are closing on. I guess I just don't know much about real estate. Going sort of on a tangent, I'm not sure how I'm feeling about my dad and Helen getting married and moving in together. I don't know what it is, but every time I feel as though I am getting to a "good place" with the whole situation, something shoots it back down. My dad is so totally stressed out right now. I know that there is a lot going on with the whole house situation, but he seems hard core stressed. Even though he tried talking to me about it today, I feel like he's not telling me everything. I've been getting that feeling too much lately. Is this what's supposed to happen? Is this really because we were so close for so long and now I am, to an extent, being replaced? Is the child of divorce ever really "fixed" or are we always stuck in a place where we feel some sort of void, some sort of unsatisfying "closure"? Sometimes I just want to say "what the hell", but I don't think any answer I would ever get, would ever be even close to fulfilling. Ugh, this is no way to end an entry...
So my last thoughts for the evening, what the hell am I supposed to do with Kyle for 3 hours on monday? I am picking him up from school while dad and Helen are at the closings. I have no f-ing clue what to do with a 13 year old boy whom I have nothing in common with for 3 whole hours. So, I am taking suggestions!
Night all, dream something sweet...