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I have turned into a wreck. physically, and emotionally.
I feel like i need to bawl my eyes out.. but it's over NOTHING.
and i dont mean "oh, it's nothing" in a nonchalant way.
I mean I literally have NOTHING to cry about.
yesterday was awesome, so much fun. and yet i dont remember driving home at all. i dropped him off, and then i was home. and felt like i needed to cry.
but bc it's me, and i hate any form of emotion i can't control, i didn't. i held it in.
much as i am now.
i just want to curl up and listen to my music. with him as a pillow.
but i'll have to make do with the little teddy bear he won me at the fair (with my money, lol)
i really dont know why he puts up with all my emotional crap i have right now.
extreme highs and lows.. and i even went off on him.. i dont remember what about anymore.
but w/e.
i'm gonna go back to concentrating on the back of my eyelids instead of my neck and back pain.. and continue listening to dashboard confessional =)
I feel like i need to bawl my eyes out.. but it's over NOTHING.
and i dont mean "oh, it's nothing" in a nonchalant way.
I mean I literally have NOTHING to cry about.
yesterday was awesome, so much fun. and yet i dont remember driving home at all. i dropped him off, and then i was home. and felt like i needed to cry.
but bc it's me, and i hate any form of emotion i can't control, i didn't. i held it in.
much as i am now.
i just want to curl up and listen to my music. with him as a pillow.
but i'll have to make do with the little teddy bear he won me at the fair (with my money, lol)
i really dont know why he puts up with all my emotional crap i have right now.
extreme highs and lows.. and i even went off on him.. i dont remember what about anymore.
but w/e.
i'm gonna go back to concentrating on the back of my eyelids instead of my neck and back pain.. and continue listening to dashboard confessional =)