Jun 05, 2003 11:28
i can't fuckin believe it....my mom kicked me out this morning. says she's menopausing ect and that i'm abusing her. such as when i forget to put my dishes in the dishwasher, leave the AC on, ect ect.
then she's so verbally abusive, i'm led to believe that the blood in her heart has turned to poison.
i don't know what to do now. my grandparents won't take me in. in fact, that's what they were hoping for. my mom even told me how my grandmother suggested the possibility of me hurting her if i should move in.
i swear all i wanted to do was get a job, which i have, make some money to take care a few things, and when i get a copy of this army service form, i can then re-enlist and go about getting my life str8.
i feel so goddamn lonely now. yea, i fucked up hardcore. i don't know what do to really. i called all the motels with the weekly rates and i found only one vacancy available. i get paid tomorrow so i hope it'll be there.
it's so hot outside, carrying my dufflebag around. i hurt my left heel real bad, so now i walk with a limp.
this has been the lowest i've ever felt. like a piece of shit. i guess the drug addiction i had made of for most of the problems i've experienced.
i gotta go, employment agency ppl gettin weird, ez