Stupid stupid boy......
Just when I thought I was getting over her I went and done a very silly thing. I went for a walk in the faery wood and went to the spot of the old mannor. A stupid thing to go and do as I remembered it was here that Kristi and I was gonna ask each other to marry one and another and it hurt like crazy. It opened up all the feelings I still have and I am affraid I still love her or I think I do.
Now I am sad and can not think of nothing but how I wish we could get back together but I know now this ain't gonna happen. I do not contact her anymore and she as made no attempt to contact me so there. I would like us to remain friends and it hurts that she can not even talk to me. God we went through alot together and I guess it means very little to her or I hurt her so much that she can not bare the thought of me anymore I just dunno....but either way it hurts.
I would do anything to speak to her but I guess she as moved on and found a new love and is happy but it would be nice to know. I am making steps to move on but today I guess is a set back and its gonna take a long long time to get over her and I am still in alot of pain. My new best friend is helping me....if you don't mind me calling you that and I thank you for your kind words and the offer of friendship of which and gratefully accept. Its funny I barely know you and i think if you are reading this then you know who you are but I feel i trust you.
I thank all of you here on LJ for your kind words and support and I know I have rambled endlessly of this matter but everyone as always said nice things and I thank you.
I dunno....I guess when you have loved someone like I love her it is damn hard to just forget them over night and so its gonna take along time.
I am to tired to write anymore.....
Goodnite.....
Now I am sad and can not think of nothing but how I wish we could get back together but I know now this ain't gonna happen. I do not contact her anymore and she as made no attempt to contact me so there. I would like us to remain friends and it hurts that she can not even talk to me. God we went through alot together and I guess it means very little to her or I hurt her so much that she can not bare the thought of me anymore I just dunno....but either way it hurts.
I would do anything to speak to her but I guess she as moved on and found a new love and is happy but it would be nice to know. I am making steps to move on but today I guess is a set back and its gonna take a long long time to get over her and I am still in alot of pain. My new best friend is helping me....if you don't mind me calling you that and I thank you for your kind words and the offer of friendship of which and gratefully accept. Its funny I barely know you and i think if you are reading this then you know who you are but I feel i trust you.
I thank all of you here on LJ for your kind words and support and I know I have rambled endlessly of this matter but everyone as always said nice things and I thank you.
I dunno....I guess when you have loved someone like I love her it is damn hard to just forget them over night and so its gonna take along time.
I am to tired to write anymore.....
Goodnite.....