Randomness
Life has been nice lately- everything is finally FALLING into place. I'm finally figuring myself out- I'm finally feeling like I'm going in the right direction... like I can be happy- like truly, genuinely happy. Not content. Not "okay." Like I deserve to be happy and that it is my RESPONSIBILITY to ensure it. I'm not living in a state of ignorance (we are in war for goodness sake), and I am trying to not deny the negatives and the crap out there, but feeling depressed doesn't make a negative situation better. In fact, I can benefit the world, or others, most if I'm taking care of myself first. I'm choosing to see the glass as half-full. To accept that life is full of imperfections - and those imperfections are where the fun, randomness, and unknown treasures lie. That I will never be perfect in any way- and that is okay because neither will anyone else! Life is for enjoying. For finding a career that you are passionate about and willing to work hard at, and reaping the benefits that come from the hard work. Ya know what- I'm not ashamed to say it- I want to make money. And I don't think that's greedy- there is lots more to life than money. But with money, comes freedom- freedom to give my children a great education, the best healthcare, and opportunities. Freedom for me to take yoga classes, to enjoy spas, to get my nails and hair done, and to donate to causes. If I only cared about money, I would have gone into business. But, I care about people- which is why I'm doing psychology. I have also been thinking about 2 novels that I'm desperate to write- and I have to work on those! I know nothing about writing novels or publishing them- but who cares? I think I have some really good ideas for 2 books, which I think are even good enough to be movies! But, I gotta write them first! :)