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im really good bout not updating this thing, but its not like anyone reads this so hey whatever right? everything is like so weird right now. like maybe its the weather or the season or heck maybe its even me? i dont know. but i do know that i dont like it. ive decided i miss alota things. i miss having someone care about me like i care bout them. i miss stupid random calls at weird times at night. i know its my fault i dont have those things anymore, well accually i didnt do anything wrong so its NOT my fault, but maybe somehow it is. the point is i miss that. and maybe cause its christmas all that will come back to me. yeah i hope it does :/ and thatd be nice considering i dont even get a christmas like most normal people. yeah i know i messed up but to take away christmas is to like kill me and stick me in a room with 2 gay people. its just WRONG and unfair. seriously like everyone deserves some kinna christmas. but no not me. whatever maybe this will teach me a lesson? anyways itd be nice to have some parents who didnt know every freakin important person in this town. like i used to think it was okay always goin somewhere and thered be at least one person i/they know. but now that ive gotten caught cause of that, its not okay. it sucks..MAJOR. its like they can ask someone they know anything they wanna know about me and theyll find out. wow its gay and cause of these stupid "connections" im in even more trouble. and thank goodness i already said yes to be in serenas quince, cause if she had just asked ida had to have said no. thats how much trouble im in. but even now, doesnt look like ima be stayin for the dance. so honestly this week sucks and will prolly get even worse. bleh no more callin the cell. haha i messed that up too. so my life=over.