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i have come to the conclusion, mikes whole family hates me. i like his brothers and sisters, and i even suspect THEY hate me. a 5 year old and a 4 year old. (gg and samantha <3 me)
im totally convinced his mom and dad hate me. i think his grandma hates me. but his other grandma i realy liked her. i though she realy liked me. but for some reason, that family ALWAYS finds SOOOOMMEEthing to hate me for (even if it happened months ago.) well months ago, i was sitting with mikes youngest sister on his couch. she was sitting on my lap, and she kept ripping my glasses off, almost breaking them and scratching up my face. well i thought it would only be fare if i put samantha on the floor, to show her, NOT TO RIP PEOPLES GLASSES OFF. mabey shed learn? mikes grandmother was there, saw this, and thought it was "rude". and brings it up now, in the subject of college and me and mike. i love mike to death. i love him so much. and he has so much potential, i want to see him go far. he can do WHATEVER his heart desires with college, as long as its best for him. i dont think im holding him back, but his family thinks that. why do they have to hate me? i never did anything to make they hate me realy, and if i did. i thought the hatchet was burried a long time ago. i am the one thats fucked for college. i am the fuckup. mike is a huge part of my life. and im just trying to do what will make us happy.
so much stress. i hate it. im tired as fuck. i dont like the lady in working with. shes so mean to me. my wisdom teeth are comming in and i wanna rip my jaw out.i dont know what im doing with my life. im never going to get in to college. and on top of all this. i miss jess so much. i have been thinking about her alot latley. not like i dont think about her everyday, but more then usual. i want her back. :(
(on a lighter note, i got to smoke during school today, just a joint, but hey alls good when theres free weed. especially when im this stressed.)
*SCREAM*
i feel better now.
im totally convinced his mom and dad hate me. i think his grandma hates me. but his other grandma i realy liked her. i though she realy liked me. but for some reason, that family ALWAYS finds SOOOOMMEEthing to hate me for (even if it happened months ago.) well months ago, i was sitting with mikes youngest sister on his couch. she was sitting on my lap, and she kept ripping my glasses off, almost breaking them and scratching up my face. well i thought it would only be fare if i put samantha on the floor, to show her, NOT TO RIP PEOPLES GLASSES OFF. mabey shed learn? mikes grandmother was there, saw this, and thought it was "rude". and brings it up now, in the subject of college and me and mike. i love mike to death. i love him so much. and he has so much potential, i want to see him go far. he can do WHATEVER his heart desires with college, as long as its best for him. i dont think im holding him back, but his family thinks that. why do they have to hate me? i never did anything to make they hate me realy, and if i did. i thought the hatchet was burried a long time ago. i am the one thats fucked for college. i am the fuckup. mike is a huge part of my life. and im just trying to do what will make us happy.
so much stress. i hate it. im tired as fuck. i dont like the lady in working with. shes so mean to me. my wisdom teeth are comming in and i wanna rip my jaw out.i dont know what im doing with my life. im never going to get in to college. and on top of all this. i miss jess so much. i have been thinking about her alot latley. not like i dont think about her everyday, but more then usual. i want her back. :(
(on a lighter note, i got to smoke during school today, just a joint, but hey alls good when theres free weed. especially when im this stressed.)
*SCREAM*
i feel better now.