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This is going to be random, but I really need to write something. Anything. So in no specific order or style...
I think I'm getting the hang of this bv thing. There's always something else to do, and something that doesn't get done. But as far as page or story quality goes, I'm starting to not be so worried. What we all forget sometime is that the bv is for learning. Writers, editors, me-- everyone involved is just doing the best they can. That's all I can ask or expect. As long people are trying, everything will be okay.
I have really embraced how awesome sleep is this semester. For the last year or so, the earliest I went to bed was 1:30 or 2, no matter how early I had to get up. But lately, at least when I haven't procrastinated myself into an all-nighter, I've been settling in at around 12 or 1. The difference is astounding.
I'm feeling the lonliness thing lately, but luckily for me, I'm way to busy to dwell on it. It's just there, poking little pinpricks into my otherwise pretty damn perfect life. Now Emma has a guy too... my turn has to be coming soon. And I mean like, HAS a guy. Not has flirty texts, not has drunk dancing at the OP, not hooking up with nothing else to back it up. That stuff is nothing in the long run. Not if it's not what you're looking for. I'm surrounded by girls who have guys who would do anything for them. I genuinely wonder how that feels. But for now, I can deal. When everything else is life is so beautiful, I refuse to let the one aspect that isn't ruin the rest.
I decided for good I'm not going to France. I think I'm okay with it, but I still have this restlesness knocking on my soul. I feel like I'd be up for anything right now-- Alaska, Calfornia, Europe, Texas. Places I never had any specific desire to go. The world is way too big to stay in WNY for too long. This is a great place to come back to, but it can sufficate if you never leave at all.
Oh well. Time to do persuasive writing homework. <3 the weekend.