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This past weekend was awesome.
I LOVE weddings. It made me sad in the beggining for alot of reasons, I dunno I guess because every wedding i've ever gone to was with Kim, I dunno. But seeing the two of them up there, you could see it in their eyes, they were absolutely in love with each other and wanted to be together.
I can't remember the last time I saw that look in Kim's eyes, don't know if it was ever there to begin with.
it's a real shame that things ended the way they did and things blew up, but I guess we're both better off.
I still wonder if we could make things work if we gave things a second chance, but when i think things through, I know she wasn't happy, and I know she's alot happier now without me, and knowing that, as much as it does suck, it makes me happy. I knew there was a time when I make her happy and I could turn her miserable frown into a laughing smile.
I am hoping that during this week down the shore we can move past all of the bullshit we put each other through and enjoy the week within each other's presence. I am ready to put the past behind me and start over.
I like all of this time to myself, but i hate the single life. i've never been about random hookups or getting laid. i never went out looking for it it came to me LOL. I really miss saying goodnight to someone everynight and waking up thinking about someone. I know I'm gonna find an amazing girl, and she'll be really hot with big boobs lol... hopefully... but I hope it's sooner than later because I like having someone to write songs for, when i don't... I start getting political and shit, and that really is not me.
ALRIGHT, no more emo shit. lol
So I have been doing alot of thinking about my future.
I have made the decision that upon my graduation with a bachelor's degree, I will continue on to graduate school(granted they accept me LOL)
I'm hoping to enroll in Temple's Clinical Psychology Doctoral program. I really feel this is my calling in life besides music. I really want to work with children with chronic illness, such as cancer survivors, mentally disabled children and especially transplant recipients like myself. No one can understand what it's like to live day to day never knowing if you may get sick the next.... I DO. I can relate to these kids, teach them how to cope, and they can probably teach me alot as well. I know I am lucky, and I have not had it hard compared to most people out there with my condition.
Not a day passes by that I don't think about Carolyn and say that could've been me, she is my main inspiration behind doing this. I'm doing it for her, and myself.
altight... it's late ... bed time
I LOVE weddings. It made me sad in the beggining for alot of reasons, I dunno I guess because every wedding i've ever gone to was with Kim, I dunno. But seeing the two of them up there, you could see it in their eyes, they were absolutely in love with each other and wanted to be together.
I can't remember the last time I saw that look in Kim's eyes, don't know if it was ever there to begin with.
it's a real shame that things ended the way they did and things blew up, but I guess we're both better off.
I still wonder if we could make things work if we gave things a second chance, but when i think things through, I know she wasn't happy, and I know she's alot happier now without me, and knowing that, as much as it does suck, it makes me happy. I knew there was a time when I make her happy and I could turn her miserable frown into a laughing smile.
I am hoping that during this week down the shore we can move past all of the bullshit we put each other through and enjoy the week within each other's presence. I am ready to put the past behind me and start over.
I like all of this time to myself, but i hate the single life. i've never been about random hookups or getting laid. i never went out looking for it it came to me LOL. I really miss saying goodnight to someone everynight and waking up thinking about someone. I know I'm gonna find an amazing girl, and she'll be really hot with big boobs lol... hopefully... but I hope it's sooner than later because I like having someone to write songs for, when i don't... I start getting political and shit, and that really is not me.
ALRIGHT, no more emo shit. lol
So I have been doing alot of thinking about my future.
I have made the decision that upon my graduation with a bachelor's degree, I will continue on to graduate school(granted they accept me LOL)
I'm hoping to enroll in Temple's Clinical Psychology Doctoral program. I really feel this is my calling in life besides music. I really want to work with children with chronic illness, such as cancer survivors, mentally disabled children and especially transplant recipients like myself. No one can understand what it's like to live day to day never knowing if you may get sick the next.... I DO. I can relate to these kids, teach them how to cope, and they can probably teach me alot as well. I know I am lucky, and I have not had it hard compared to most people out there with my condition.
Not a day passes by that I don't think about Carolyn and say that could've been me, she is my main inspiration behind doing this. I'm doing it for her, and myself.
altight... it's late ... bed time