August 2023
8/1
That was a heck of a slump I was in. Not sure if I'm fully out yet. Seems like each plunge is deeper and harder. I'm not sure how I got out this time; I guess it's just a tide that comes and goes. Yay.
I've been getting deeper into Unbroken Brain. Not sure if I'm covering new ground yet, but the last chapter The Myth of the Addictive Personality (or something like that) provided me insight into myself, how the people most likely to learn an addiction were at opposite extremes, the liberally impulsive types, and the compulsive ones that are hardcore straight edge, how both are symptoms of an inability to regulate one's own behavior, the latter stemming from fear.
I feel compulsive, unable to control my thoughts at times. I don't buy myself junk because (1) I think it's a waste of money, and (2) I'm afraid I'll binge on it if it's around. Like BBQ chips. I am thinking a return to a meditative practice will do me good.
I got my tie breaker post up for the MKT. All that remains before the next MKT is a post on each of the two previous tourneys, and a final post laying out what will be expected from participants during future tournaments (mainly for myself to outline what I want to share right before the tournament starts). Also creating the matchup board, which I would like done before that final post, which can go up a couple days beforehand. The matchup board is the biggest task left; I have a general vision for it, but I'm dumb when it comes to being crafty, so I don't yet know the specifics of how it will come together.
That was a heck of a slump I was in. Not sure if I'm fully out yet. Seems like each plunge is deeper and harder. I'm not sure how I got out this time; I guess it's just a tide that comes and goes. Yay.
I've been getting deeper into Unbroken Brain. Not sure if I'm covering new ground yet, but the last chapter The Myth of the Addictive Personality (or something like that) provided me insight into myself, how the people most likely to learn an addiction were at opposite extremes, the liberally impulsive types, and the compulsive ones that are hardcore straight edge, how both are symptoms of an inability to regulate one's own behavior, the latter stemming from fear.
I feel compulsive, unable to control my thoughts at times. I don't buy myself junk because (1) I think it's a waste of money, and (2) I'm afraid I'll binge on it if it's around. Like BBQ chips. I am thinking a return to a meditative practice will do me good.
I got my tie breaker post up for the MKT. All that remains before the next MKT is a post on each of the two previous tourneys, and a final post laying out what will be expected from participants during future tournaments (mainly for myself to outline what I want to share right before the tournament starts). Also creating the matchup board, which I would like done before that final post, which can go up a couple days beforehand. The matchup board is the biggest task left; I have a general vision for it, but I'm dumb when it comes to being crafty, so I don't yet know the specifics of how it will come together.