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Today seems to suck more and more by the minute. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I'm sure it will get better but I'm not so sure. I feel like crap.
Literally. I'm so afraid that Derek's going to find someone new and better than me. And that's not hard to do. I'm so scared because I think i depend on him to much. Well, not depend on him, but, nevermind I have no idea what I'm trying to say. I think I could be a much better girlfriend than I am now. Oh, okay I figured out why I'm scared. I'm scared because a few weeks ago he was like " I think we'll be together for more than 2 years " and I would Love that but I'm scared that he was lying. And that he was just saying it to say it. But, then again I don't want to go saying he was lying if he wasn't, 'cause then I'd feel bad. I'm scared to say this to him. But I know I should, becuase that's probably the only thing that's going to make me feel better.
Okay, I need to get out of this gross mood. So yea, yesterday Joe and I wrote a song. It's pretty good. It's in Joes info amricanhist0ryx . It's You're Lucky or something. It's about my Dad.. but whatever. I feel bad writing it about my dad, but it was how I felt so, yea.
Okay, as of 7:33 PM, I need to talk to Derek. But, I don't know if he'll be online or what not. And I dislike using the phone. I hate the phone. Ick :x
I Love YOu Derek
Literally. I'm so afraid that Derek's going to find someone new and better than me. And that's not hard to do. I'm so scared because I think i depend on him to much. Well, not depend on him, but, nevermind I have no idea what I'm trying to say. I think I could be a much better girlfriend than I am now. Oh, okay I figured out why I'm scared. I'm scared because a few weeks ago he was like " I think we'll be together for more than 2 years " and I would Love that but I'm scared that he was lying. And that he was just saying it to say it. But, then again I don't want to go saying he was lying if he wasn't, 'cause then I'd feel bad. I'm scared to say this to him. But I know I should, becuase that's probably the only thing that's going to make me feel better.
Okay, I need to get out of this gross mood. So yea, yesterday Joe and I wrote a song. It's pretty good. It's in Joes info amricanhist0ryx . It's You're Lucky or something. It's about my Dad.. but whatever. I feel bad writing it about my dad, but it was how I felt so, yea.
Okay, as of 7:33 PM, I need to talk to Derek. But, I don't know if he'll be online or what not. And I dislike using the phone. I hate the phone. Ick :x
I Love YOu Derek