Fee-lin' Grooo--vvvvvvy.....
I hit that point of SD that I'm kinda high and feeling numb. Almost nice, or would be if every part of my body didn't hurt like I was beaten with a mag-lite while I got the little sleep I DID catch last night.
Have you ver confused lust with love? Have you ever done it so much you never knew when you were truly in love? Has it ever seemed like you wanted something so badly but you really had no idea why? Have you ever held onto a relationship because of love, even though you can't stand the person?
I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know what's going on with my life. I don't know where I am. I don't know what the hell I want with anyone. I don't know WHO I want.
Which reminds me. I got the most ODD text message from the most unexpected person. I haven't thought about him in I don't know how long but when I saw the area code I was like "What the hell? Who the hell is THAT?" Called the number back and found out. I was floored. That was a 45 minute anxiety attack right there. Man that shit hurt.
Bringing me to my next point.... Called my doctor this morning. Left a message for him saying that its def. not the "overmedicating" theory. Good try though. Need something else FAST. I think I'm dying. Seriously. I think my chest is slowly imploding.
I think that's enough for now. I need to play a game with a good friend and that requires a lot of thinking...
Have you ver confused lust with love? Have you ever done it so much you never knew when you were truly in love? Has it ever seemed like you wanted something so badly but you really had no idea why? Have you ever held onto a relationship because of love, even though you can't stand the person?
I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know what's going on with my life. I don't know where I am. I don't know what the hell I want with anyone. I don't know WHO I want.
Which reminds me. I got the most ODD text message from the most unexpected person. I haven't thought about him in I don't know how long but when I saw the area code I was like "What the hell? Who the hell is THAT?" Called the number back and found out. I was floored. That was a 45 minute anxiety attack right there. Man that shit hurt.
Bringing me to my next point.... Called my doctor this morning. Left a message for him saying that its def. not the "overmedicating" theory. Good try though. Need something else FAST. I think I'm dying. Seriously. I think my chest is slowly imploding.
I think that's enough for now. I need to play a game with a good friend and that requires a lot of thinking...