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I'm having the most frustrating 'I want to get high' feelings. It's annoying me because, more or less, I don't like drugs. Weed is OK depending on mood but only because it doesn't do much to me. In general, I find the experience of having something influence my mental state to be very unpleasant. As far as I can tell, I'm OK with stimulants but don't get on well with mood changers. I'm very intrigued by psychedelics but I just don't fancy it. I guess I'd try shrooms if the opportunity arose.
Essentially, I'm too anxious. I need the feeling of control and I simply can't deal with not having that. It's all or nothing and I won't be telling you the details of my last experience with nothing. From conversations with friends, I get the impression that people who have trouble controlling their moods often do find happy drugs really fucking horrible,
Apart from the fact that I don't really like drugs and don't like hanging out with groups of people who take drugs (individuals are no problem for some reason). I am also right in the middle of trying to sort out my mental health. It would not be clever to interfere with that. Whatever, some part of me wants something it's not getting.
Essentially, I'm too anxious. I need the feeling of control and I simply can't deal with not having that. It's all or nothing and I won't be telling you the details of my last experience with nothing. From conversations with friends, I get the impression that people who have trouble controlling their moods often do find happy drugs really fucking horrible,
Apart from the fact that I don't really like drugs and don't like hanging out with groups of people who take drugs (individuals are no problem for some reason). I am also right in the middle of trying to sort out my mental health. It would not be clever to interfere with that. Whatever, some part of me wants something it's not getting.