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1. I have quite a bad anxiety problem.
2. If something is scary, the best thing to do is confront it. What really scares me is not knowing so even if the thing IS bad it still wont be as bad as not knowing.
It has taken me 5 years to put these two things together. I'm missing 5 years of life because of it.
I am an idiot.
I guess I cam blame depression for some of my stupidity but making excuses does not help anything. The only thing is, I feel like I am being punished for trying to deal with things myself. In this country you HAVE to use the systems in place or you are fucked alter on. It's true of everything. I'm not into it and that constantly causes problems. Maybe I should give in for the sake of having an easy life.
Goodnight.
2. If something is scary, the best thing to do is confront it. What really scares me is not knowing so even if the thing IS bad it still wont be as bad as not knowing.
It has taken me 5 years to put these two things together. I'm missing 5 years of life because of it.
I am an idiot.
I guess I cam blame depression for some of my stupidity but making excuses does not help anything. The only thing is, I feel like I am being punished for trying to deal with things myself. In this country you HAVE to use the systems in place or you are fucked alter on. It's true of everything. I'm not into it and that constantly causes problems. Maybe I should give in for the sake of having an easy life.
Goodnight.