this will be a good day

[stronglegs]

I am so pissed off, just wrote a huge thing all about tom, my long term love interest and one of the reasons i overeat and feel like a fucking crazy loon, and the fact that i fucked his best friend on a boat and from what i can understand tom came back, and found us, and how this would normally make me overeat and feel shit like crazy...but actually it hasn't, not really. i also have quite a lot of writing to do, that normally would make me overeat like crzy, and for some reason, i am ok about that too. i've been doing drugs too, always makes me binge a bit...

what is going on

anyway, realise now my target weight it actually, 125lbs, that means I have to lose 8lbs, how hard can that be if i am running and not obsessing about tom.

we'll see