May 17, 2005 11:15
Okay. So here's the short version: John called me last night, and we had a long talk. As it turns out, some people at the ferry have their own little scenarios in their heads, and have a problem keeping them to themselves. So as it turns out, and Christine has confirmed this, he never wanted to date Danielle again. He's just acting as an ear for her to bitch about her homelife and her boyfriend, much to his own dismay. Simply, he's just too good of a friend sometimes. But some of the guys on the dock were giving him shit, and they started making up their own little ending, and it got back to Christine. That's where shit started going wrong.
Moving forth, during our talk last night, we realized just how much we really love each other, and that we're not going to take things lying down. When I get back, we're going to try to work on things, because our relationship means too much to just let it die. If this is meant to be, it'll work. If not, it won't. This is what I've resolved myself to, and I'm remaining objective. However, my love for John runs deeper than I've been acknowledging as of late, and I've learned that when things start to go wrong, you can't just pack your shit and head for the hills. You have to make a choice: Run like a coward, or stay and fight. I'm choosing to stay and fight.
I just wanted to let you all know in the easiest venue I know how, this one. I'll still tell you MCLA kids individually, but I just want everyone to be aware. John and I are not quite back together at this juncture, but we're basically going to start fresh with our relationship starting May 29th. We'll see what happens. Stay tuned.