wow!

[strokeit]

well after thinking i really don't know how you could be so mean and not think about how much it would hurt me. i mean i didn't think you could be so mean and even if you don't think you weren't in reality you were only thinking about what you wnated and not at all how it would effect me. it hurts but for some reason i could see it coming. many people in my situation would regret alot of things that happen but i can honestly say i don't expect the sitaution we are in now. that would be the only thing i would change. i don't know whats gonna happen in the future...how cool we will be or how we'll act towards eachother. what i do know is is that talking in person would be good but i don't know if that will ever work out. once school starts i know somethings will be different seeing as we'll be seeing eachother everyday most likely but who knows. i guess that remains to be seen. i don't even know what we would call us..i just really don't know. but it's not good and i feel like i shouldn't be being so nice and understanding because what you did was shit and there was no excuse for it. i may be able to forgive, but if anything ever happens between us in the future i will never forget the past.

i guess we will have to see what the future holds however horrible or exciting it may be.

wish me luck!
chels