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ok. i feel better now, i think. coming down of a bit of a panic attack last night. more than a bit. was so messed up and scared that i couldn't go to sleep til 7 a.m. but i think tonight might be better. and i lost my voice for a while today. i'm sure everyone was ecstatic. my period is cramping me pretty dang good but i'll take it as a trade off for the other night.
i also feel much better about me and josh too. i guess i just go thru periods of indecision and hormone-driven freak outs. i suppose everything is ok now. he's as sweet as he's even been and he told me a few really sweet things on yahoo tonight that made me feel really good. about me, about him, and about us.
but i still can't sleep. i have to be up at 7 for a 9 hour shift and i'm not remotely tired yet.
i also feel much better about me and josh too. i guess i just go thru periods of indecision and hormone-driven freak outs. i suppose everything is ok now. he's as sweet as he's even been and he told me a few really sweet things on yahoo tonight that made me feel really good. about me, about him, and about us.
but i still can't sleep. i have to be up at 7 for a 9 hour shift and i'm not remotely tired yet.