If I'da Known
If I'da known I'd have to see the things I've seen, I never would have volunteered.
If I'da known joining the army would have made her leave me, I never would have joined.
If I'da known that she would end up leaving me over some bs like me joining the army, I never would have gotten with her.
If I'da known so many things, I would have done so many things differently.
But who wouldn't, right?
So, update update update. Um...did a lot more training, now it's an 80% chance I'll go. If I go I can buy my sergeants truck I've been wantin for a couple months now. On the 7-10 is when I get my 4 day break...some people are going back up to Alaska, but I don't think I will. Only people I would want to visit would be my family, gamestop, radioshack, subway and my church, but I talk to my family and gamestop all the time and my church has my email if they want to talk to me, so I'll be staying here. I'm going to go to New York for the four day pass, with "Shadow Raver" haha. I'm going to get my rose tattoos while I'm there, get a couple of games, and hopefully not get robbed. Meh, I just want to fast forward to next December, find out if I'm alive or not, find out if I am still talking with either Teresa or Tamera, find out if this college thing I'm trying to do works out, find out if I'm 50 grand richer, find out if I ever do feel like being a good christian again, or just find out how many people I have killed from now til then.
The Christian thing is starting to get to me. I'm trying to come back, but I have no support, and I'm a follower in that aspect. I'll lead others in other stuff, but I need someone to talk to and look up to when it comes to my faith, and there I have no one. I only talk with my mom, my sister, the woman formerly known as Sole, and my manager from gamestop. And that's on a semi-regular basis with all of them, at best.
I'll work on it.
If I'da known joining the army would have made her leave me, I never would have joined.
If I'da known that she would end up leaving me over some bs like me joining the army, I never would have gotten with her.
If I'da known so many things, I would have done so many things differently.
But who wouldn't, right?
So, update update update. Um...did a lot more training, now it's an 80% chance I'll go. If I go I can buy my sergeants truck I've been wantin for a couple months now. On the 7-10 is when I get my 4 day break...some people are going back up to Alaska, but I don't think I will. Only people I would want to visit would be my family, gamestop, radioshack, subway and my church, but I talk to my family and gamestop all the time and my church has my email if they want to talk to me, so I'll be staying here. I'm going to go to New York for the four day pass, with "Shadow Raver" haha. I'm going to get my rose tattoos while I'm there, get a couple of games, and hopefully not get robbed. Meh, I just want to fast forward to next December, find out if I'm alive or not, find out if I am still talking with either Teresa or Tamera, find out if this college thing I'm trying to do works out, find out if I'm 50 grand richer, find out if I ever do feel like being a good christian again, or just find out how many people I have killed from now til then.
The Christian thing is starting to get to me. I'm trying to come back, but I have no support, and I'm a follower in that aspect. I'll lead others in other stuff, but I need someone to talk to and look up to when it comes to my faith, and there I have no one. I only talk with my mom, my sister, the woman formerly known as Sole, and my manager from gamestop. And that's on a semi-regular basis with all of them, at best.
I'll work on it.