3 weeks in....
So I am now 3 weeks into my new life... and I have been searching for a job since then.. with no luck.... I really need to find a job. bills are coming up and I'd reather not be late with them. Sitting at home in the tiny apartment is beinging to wear on me. I can feel the darker side of me swelling again. All I do is sit here and play World of Warcraft all day and cook dinner. That's it!! I thought the "house-fiancee" thing was cool for a while, but now I'm seriously in need of an outlet. I dont have any ideas for a story, which I know is way past due. But there is little you can do when there is nothing inspiring you. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choice comming down here so soon. Dont get me wrong I love him very much, but with not having a job and not being able to afford things is nagging at me. I have never been so broke. and its not just that, but I see the fun everyone is having back at the old university and wish I were there. At least there I would have had a job. I miss my people, being 3 hours from them I feel isolated and alone. How is it that one can feel alone and yet be with the one you love? Is it that I'm not used to being away from friends. That I got so used to seing them everyday, eating together, working together, having fun together? Is it that I got so used to the community life style that I'm not used to having things to myself? I hate that everytime my mom calls I feel like crying. I dont even know why I feel like crying. Its stupid really. Well I guess I should go...maybe I'll be back on tomorrow or monday.