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alright s i just made my journal friends only cause now i just guess therse some people that i dont want to read this cause i feel like a dork lol....anyways...lastnight i went to johns to pick up hostage and some other movie to watch with alicia but wended up stayin there for a few hours then i went over to alicias n we went to blockbuster n just chilled the rest a the night. I worked at 10 this morning again bleh....staying home tonight cause i have to take my acessment test for edison tomorrow at 1....its at 1 but still.Tomorrow after my test me n john are gonna spend the rest of the day together n i'll prolly spend the night there too :] AND my furniture comes tomorrow yay i can finally put all my wrinkled shit away.
im crazy but whatever....u know that feeling like when ur heart drops n ur really sad? thats how ive been for the past 3 days =/ like yesterday when me n john were watchin tv i had tears in my eyes like i didnt start crying yet but ht was like 'why are u crying' blah blah blah lol.I feel like shit seriously.If he cant live with me now then wtf why are we together yanno? what this is how were gonna be when were 59 n have kids,yanno? Like i understand the reason for all of this and im sure things will change in another year but seriosuly. All i wanna do is talk to him about it lol. All we used to talk about is living togetehr oh itd be so perfect, and it was when we got along but neh. Maybe next summer yanno? Im really so lonely now though n all iw as do is calll him! lol bleh whatever im gonna go take a shower
im crazy but whatever....u know that feeling like when ur heart drops n ur really sad? thats how ive been for the past 3 days =/ like yesterday when me n john were watchin tv i had tears in my eyes like i didnt start crying yet but ht was like 'why are u crying' blah blah blah lol.I feel like shit seriously.If he cant live with me now then wtf why are we together yanno? what this is how were gonna be when were 59 n have kids,yanno? Like i understand the reason for all of this and im sure things will change in another year but seriosuly. All i wanna do is talk to him about it lol. All we used to talk about is living togetehr oh itd be so perfect, and it was when we got along but neh. Maybe next summer yanno? Im really so lonely now though n all iw as do is calll him! lol bleh whatever im gonna go take a shower