sometimes
Sometimes I feel non exsistent to the world, like a spec so small in this huge universe and no one sees me. I feel like today has been very hard on me for a few reasons, I found I dont want to be in the military, Im sick as a dog, my friends arent really good friends, and Ive probably shed at least a gallon of tears. Im so tired of feeling this way, it makes me feel like there really is nothing to look forward to. I want to be happy, I want to be loved, I want to be respected and I want to live the life I always dreamed.
I just dont know where my life is headed anymore, its like one day I want something then the next day I want something completely different. I just wish I had a passion, something I knew I wanted to do with my life, something I could be happy about.
Im glad Im going out of town this weekend, it will give me time to think about what needs to happen in order to pull myself out of this rut. I hope I can find the strength to get back to the old me, when I was happy... when I was a better person. i love you all, goodnight.
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I just dont know where my life is headed anymore, its like one day I want something then the next day I want something completely different. I just wish I had a passion, something I knew I wanted to do with my life, something I could be happy about.
Im glad Im going out of town this weekend, it will give me time to think about what needs to happen in order to pull myself out of this rut. I hope I can find the strength to get back to the old me, when I was happy... when I was a better person. i love you all, goodnight.
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