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So last night I'm at home watching tv and Pat calls. I pickup to a voice that clearly isn't Pat's and get hung up on a mere 5 seconds later. I then decide to call back and Mihran answers. I already could tell something was up just by the way he sounded so then Pat eventually got on the phone. Turns out they were both drunk and high at Pat's house while his parents were down the Cape.
So I was talking to him finding it amusing because we hardly ever get to get drunk together with the exception of Prom because he's always usually the driver. Then he says how he actually feels happy as opposed to feeling like shit like he normally does. I asked him what that was about and he basically said that he still feels guilty over his friend committing suicide because apparently the kid had reached out to him. This happened almost a year ago I think. Pat said he thinks about it everyday and I mean obviously this was a shock to me because he would never bring it up or talk about how he was feeling to any of us. He said it was because he didn't want to burden us with his problems.
Then we got to the topic of Angela and he was saying how he was fine with being "second best" meaning he always saw it as Angela and I being the best friends and he was second best to her and to me. And he said that he likes both of us a lot and we deserve to have each other as best friends and stuff. I was still kind of surprised by it all because he's never said anything. Right now though it's definititely not the case with me and Angela.
So I basically told him to be careful and not to drive because he had planned to go out after they had sobered up a little. I told him to either call or text me today to let me know that he was ok but he hasn't yet. I went on facebook and he's commented on people's walls and stuff today so I'm assuming he's alright, but it still would've been nice of him to call me or something..although last night he did say he had a busy day today.
It kinda makes me sad that he said all of that, and I'm planning on talking to him hopefully about it because he shouldn't have to be bearing that burden and bottling inside all this time.
Angela texts me last night and tells me of this party that this girl Donnah is having and invites me basically. She said she would call today about the details but I still haven't gotten any phonecall. I was planning on using her calling me as the time to actually talk about our friendship because right now I'm not even sure we're going to be friends come this fall despite both of us being in the same city.
So I was talking to him finding it amusing because we hardly ever get to get drunk together with the exception of Prom because he's always usually the driver. Then he says how he actually feels happy as opposed to feeling like shit like he normally does. I asked him what that was about and he basically said that he still feels guilty over his friend committing suicide because apparently the kid had reached out to him. This happened almost a year ago I think. Pat said he thinks about it everyday and I mean obviously this was a shock to me because he would never bring it up or talk about how he was feeling to any of us. He said it was because he didn't want to burden us with his problems.
Then we got to the topic of Angela and he was saying how he was fine with being "second best" meaning he always saw it as Angela and I being the best friends and he was second best to her and to me. And he said that he likes both of us a lot and we deserve to have each other as best friends and stuff. I was still kind of surprised by it all because he's never said anything. Right now though it's definititely not the case with me and Angela.
So I basically told him to be careful and not to drive because he had planned to go out after they had sobered up a little. I told him to either call or text me today to let me know that he was ok but he hasn't yet. I went on facebook and he's commented on people's walls and stuff today so I'm assuming he's alright, but it still would've been nice of him to call me or something..although last night he did say he had a busy day today.
It kinda makes me sad that he said all of that, and I'm planning on talking to him hopefully about it because he shouldn't have to be bearing that burden and bottling inside all this time.
Angela texts me last night and tells me of this party that this girl Donnah is having and invites me basically. She said she would call today about the details but I still haven't gotten any phonecall. I was planning on using her calling me as the time to actually talk about our friendship because right now I'm not even sure we're going to be friends come this fall despite both of us being in the same city.