Torn to peices!!!!
Well, no one uses these anymore so I guess I will. Just went over some entries back from when Adrianna and I were dating...... basically brought me to tears. I hate it. I keep trying to move on but Im stuck. I'm happy that shes moved on but at the same time I'm not. I'm worried about her. Well, more so Im worried about this new guy. I don't want him to take advantage/do anything stupid. I dont know him and because of that don't trust him. But what can you do. I wish things had been differently..... I knew this would happen. I was like "When she gets a boyfriend its gonna tear me apart". I just gotta deal with it. God will help me but its hard when you love someone. Its kinda strange because this was pretty much the exact same feeling/situation I was in before we started dating. I really really liked her but couldn't tell her now I still love her but can't tell her........ God help me to cope! God is awesome. I can't imagine how Job must have felt. He lost his children, people stole all his livestock and he was covered is painful boyles...All the pain he went through and he still loved God. I will do the same. God will bring me through.