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so i've been up for 48 hours.
and haven't been able to eat in all that time.
and i think my body is aborting itself
not to say i don't get a kick out of being just as stupid as i am right now("i thought i saw a unicorn or layney on all fours, and then i realized that was silly, layney doesn't crawl around")
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jared called me this morning to let me know his mom kicked him out. i was at pastorias with layney and danny, and i said right then that i knew jareds mom would be calling me lots today
and i was right.
she's calling sauls parents today. i'm glad about that, at least, since saul is not getting any better.
jesus fuck. jareds mom makes me feel like absolute shit, but i swear to you, i'm being put in so many unfair positions right now by the parents. and now, after calling me self involved at least twice a day for the past week, my dad tells me he's sorry that i'm "so surrounded by tragedy..." well, gee, thanks?
it's not tragedy, just bad parenting, stupid teens, and drugs.
P.S. fran said to my dad "i just don't see what a group of 20 and 21 year old men can see in a 16 year old girl"
well, that's really bitchy and spiteful.
and after that she referred to all my friends as "druggie scum"
and then she let me know that she wasn't calling to make me feel bad, but i need to help her more.
......whats funny is, i have no control over anything her son does. i can't do that to him. i AM just a sixteen year old girl. so fuck her for giving me all the responsibility and as much guilt too.
after that she told me how much she liked me, and how much jared respects me. not after first saying all we ever do is have sex.
fucking.
and haven't been able to eat in all that time.
and i think my body is aborting itself
not to say i don't get a kick out of being just as stupid as i am right now("i thought i saw a unicorn or layney on all fours, and then i realized that was silly, layney doesn't crawl around")
---
jared called me this morning to let me know his mom kicked him out. i was at pastorias with layney and danny, and i said right then that i knew jareds mom would be calling me lots today
and i was right.
she's calling sauls parents today. i'm glad about that, at least, since saul is not getting any better.
jesus fuck. jareds mom makes me feel like absolute shit, but i swear to you, i'm being put in so many unfair positions right now by the parents. and now, after calling me self involved at least twice a day for the past week, my dad tells me he's sorry that i'm "so surrounded by tragedy..." well, gee, thanks?
it's not tragedy, just bad parenting, stupid teens, and drugs.
P.S. fran said to my dad "i just don't see what a group of 20 and 21 year old men can see in a 16 year old girl"
well, that's really bitchy and spiteful.
and after that she referred to all my friends as "druggie scum"
and then she let me know that she wasn't calling to make me feel bad, but i need to help her more.
......whats funny is, i have no control over anything her son does. i can't do that to him. i AM just a sixteen year old girl. so fuck her for giving me all the responsibility and as much guilt too.
after that she told me how much she liked me, and how much jared respects me. not after first saying all we ever do is have sex.
fucking.