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It just keeps getting worse. My life is a mess again. No money, no ompensation, nothing. Just a shit load of pain and stress.
To top it off, I dont think any of my so alled friends beyond Steveo( the guy i supposedly dumped like a disease{not the ase AT ALL}) who lives waaaaayyy the hell and gone in Navarre and Frog, who lives waaaaaaaaaaaayyyyy the hell and gone in Ensley, really are at all. They like to pretend, and think they do. They like to aww and pout, but it doesnt do me a shit bit of good. ALL ME! I HAVE A PHONE! DIAL THE NUMBER GODDAMMIT! STOP MAKING ME FEEL WORTHLESS, PLEASE! Id all Peyton, but my parents are taking Anthony out for his birthday. So even should the tides turn and something opportune ome up to deliver me, I must stay here and wath the hildren.
Not to mention my keyboard doesnt want to use proper puntuation or sees. And its old in here. I feel trapped. Im so sik of my room, my house. I wanta igarette. I want to get out. I want to stop wathing Rent repeatedly.
I want SOMETHING for all my pain and misery.
I hate myself. What a selfish post. Maybe I deserve this. I must deserve it. What other reason is there?
To top it off, I dont think any of my so alled friends beyond Steveo( the guy i supposedly dumped like a disease{not the ase AT ALL}) who lives waaaaayyy the hell and gone in Navarre and Frog, who lives waaaaaaaaaaaayyyyy the hell and gone in Ensley, really are at all. They like to pretend, and think they do. They like to aww and pout, but it doesnt do me a shit bit of good. ALL ME! I HAVE A PHONE! DIAL THE NUMBER GODDAMMIT! STOP MAKING ME FEEL WORTHLESS, PLEASE! Id all Peyton, but my parents are taking Anthony out for his birthday. So even should the tides turn and something opportune ome up to deliver me, I must stay here and wath the hildren.
Not to mention my keyboard doesnt want to use proper puntuation or sees. And its old in here. I feel trapped. Im so sik of my room, my house. I wanta igarette. I want to get out. I want to stop wathing Rent repeatedly.
I want SOMETHING for all my pain and misery.
I hate myself. What a selfish post. Maybe I deserve this. I must deserve it. What other reason is there?