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it's sunday october 24th, 2004. not too much good going on right now. i'm very depressed. but it's ok. my band had a show on friday. it went insanely well. the only bad part was that ellie and molly could not be there. on saturday i went out with ellie finally. it was great. and supposedly we are gonna go out again. that would be awesome. i feel sad a lot caz me and ellie arn't as close as we used to be. i mean we are just as close as we ever were, but we don't talk as much and don't see each other as much as we used to. i definately miss her a lot. so then we went to molly's boyfriend's show. it was amazing to see molly. she definately looked amazingly pretty and her black hair looked awesome. but matt's band was...umm...bad.haha. but it was great to see molly. our relationship is so great. i love her so much. but i really wanna be with her. i know the situation that she is in and i don't want her to feel bad about it or feel rushed or anything like that. i just think she should be with me. i love her. and i think i would be a great boyfriend to her. i guess im just not meant for love. i can't get any luck. i just hope i can wait long enough. well, i know i can wait long enough because i really am in love with this girl. i just hope it doesn't hurt like this all the time. and then i hope that we are actually together eventually. i worry. i worry a lot.