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I'm on an anticonvulsant called topamax starting tonight
it's also used for the treatment of migraines and bipolar disorder
my doctor pretty much said "we're going to nip all your problems in the bud with one medication... hopefully". I've been having seizures. I've been having migraines and severe auras. And my bipolar disorder has gotten a bit out of hand. I hope it works. I also hope I don't suffer the shitty side effects that come with the medication.
This is definitely a catalyst for major life change because on this medication, I can no longer drink. I can see my already limited social life going into the shitter as a result. BUT maybe this is healthier in the long run? I'm just going to miss having a glass of wine after class. Or grabbing a beer with Ari or at Ari's bar. Meh.
I am sort of looking forward to the side effect of weight loss and anorexia. It's not anorexia in the way any of you are thinking. The medication is pretty much an appetite suppresant, killing any and all binge eating cravings as well as most food cravings. I'm going to have to force myself to eat three times a day even when I'm not hungry. Because I won't be hungry. I could lose anywhere from 15-25lbs. It's a little scary thinking about what my body may look like after I get through a few weeks of this medication. I've always been a little on the big side. NOT FAT, just not a rail. I've been between 145 and 155 for years (probably about 6). I am currently sitting at 150. If I lost 25lbs I would be down to 125. I can't even picture that. I don't want to lose my boobs either hahaha. But I also don't want to look ill. That's my biggest fear, this medication making me look ill or like a frickin' cancer patient.
We'll see how my fears play out hmm?