Oct 30, 2005 16:18
That last update was all Shawn. He hacked me good.
My mother turned to me this morning in church with tears in her eyes. I asked why she was crying. "I have no mommy or daddy." Such small words from grown woman, and I cried too.
I've actually cried a lot lately wondering how much I'm really doing, and why I'm not more; Why can't I be any more/do any more for society and love? I sense change. It's just the season.
"I found myself in anger, I cried out in despair
I prayed, 'Lord let them hear me! Let just one person care!'
I raised my voice to heaven as the train kept moving on
As we passed behind the church yard I could hear the worship songs.
I cried out all the louder to the Christians there inside
but they raised the chorus louder not hearing me outside.
I knew they heard the whistle and the clacking of the tracks
They knew that I was going to die and still they turned their backs.
I said, 'Father in heaven how can your people be
so very hard of hearing to the cry of one like me?'
I shouted, 'please have mercy! Just a prayer before I die!?
But they sang a little louder to the Holy One on high
They raised their hands to heaven but blood was dripping down
The blood of all the innocent their voices tried to drown.
They have devotions daily, they function in my name
And they never even realized it was I upon that train."
Stage Fright is almost over. Wonder what the next serving on my plate will be.