just as long as it's ours... that's all that matters
this song pretty much sums up and defines my thoughts for the past week or so.
seemingly, I shouldn't be complaining, because florida was extremely fun.
but that's exactly the problem.
most people get homesickness; I get anywherebuthomesickness. I don't know what it is, but I always feel like I need to leave... not necessarily because of weather or anything like that, but because I always feel like there's something better out there for me. I'm generally a fairly happy, optimistic person, but there's always a sense of discontent in the back of my mind because there's somewhere else I'd rather be. it's definitely not that the grass is greener on the other side, because I don't really miss anything when I'm on that other side. sure, I definitely miss people when I'm away from them, but knowing that I'll see them before long makes that practically a non-issue. however, feeling like I've been missing out for the past sixteen and a half years contributes to a much more significant feeling.
this definitely all relates to something else I don't feel comfortable bitching about on livejournal. everything that's irritating me is somewhat interrelated.
so I have a chance of going to california for coachella in less than a month... but then my mom starts bitching tonight about how she doesn't want to pay for her less than half of the cost of the trip, which we had previously agreed upon... and this all makes me sound like a spoiled brat, I'm sure, but mind you, paying that cost about 167 times (I didn't pull that number out of my ass, I actually calculated it) would equal the money my parents haven't had to spend because I left roeper. I even agreed to pay her back for ALL OF IT after I get a job this summer, and she said she'll consider it. ashduidfbsdifubsigbdfg.
I don't feel like doing anything. I just want to sleep for hours. screw responsibilities.
I should shut up and go to bed.
seemingly, I shouldn't be complaining, because florida was extremely fun.
but that's exactly the problem.
most people get homesickness; I get anywherebuthomesickness. I don't know what it is, but I always feel like I need to leave... not necessarily because of weather or anything like that, but because I always feel like there's something better out there for me. I'm generally a fairly happy, optimistic person, but there's always a sense of discontent in the back of my mind because there's somewhere else I'd rather be. it's definitely not that the grass is greener on the other side, because I don't really miss anything when I'm on that other side. sure, I definitely miss people when I'm away from them, but knowing that I'll see them before long makes that practically a non-issue. however, feeling like I've been missing out for the past sixteen and a half years contributes to a much more significant feeling.
this definitely all relates to something else I don't feel comfortable bitching about on livejournal. everything that's irritating me is somewhat interrelated.
so I have a chance of going to california for coachella in less than a month... but then my mom starts bitching tonight about how she doesn't want to pay for her less than half of the cost of the trip, which we had previously agreed upon... and this all makes me sound like a spoiled brat, I'm sure, but mind you, paying that cost about 167 times (I didn't pull that number out of my ass, I actually calculated it) would equal the money my parents haven't had to spend because I left roeper. I even agreed to pay her back for ALL OF IT after I get a job this summer, and she said she'll consider it. ashduidfbsdifubsigbdfg.
I don't feel like doing anything. I just want to sleep for hours. screw responsibilities.
I should shut up and go to bed.