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this was one of the most uneventful weekends ever. friday was the only night I actually did anything. after watching silence of the lambs with sarah stonehouse, I went upstairs to go to bed. as I was turning my hallway light off, I passed by my brother's room and thought something didn't look right. I thought this was kind of odd, seeing as he's away at college, and I was in that state of slight paranoia I sometimes get after watching a creepy movie. I took a second glance, only to realize there was someone laying in his bed. sooo I screamed at the top of my lungs at like 1 o'clock in the morning, and of course realized a split second later that it was my mom. I guess she was sick and didn't want to keep my dad awake with her coughing... regardless, it scared the shit out of me.
I went to my aunt's baby shower today... yeah it was definitely way boring... but anyway, I've been thinking lately that I'm not sure I want to have kids. I mean, I definitely do because I like (some) kids, but I think I might adopt. maybe it's just that I'm 16 and somewhat immature, but something about the whole process of childbirth really bothers me. this may sound kind of terrible, but I always think of being pregnant as being somewhat helpless and vulnerable. I don't want to feel that way about myself. maybe I'll mature later on and change my mind, but I really feel like I don't think I'll ever go through all that. so I was attempting to explain this to my mom, and she gave me a bunch of weird looks and told me I was really vain. oh.
so this bracelet I've been wearing that I found in my parents' room a month or so ago... my grandma told me today it was from her brother, and was made from parts of an airplane. haha I'm a dork for thinking that's cool.
speaking of jewelry, I finally got second earring holes, nine years after I first got my ears pierced. one side is perfectly fine, the other is way infected. they probably wouldn't be infected at all, it's just that the original earrings were big and funny looking, so I decided to change them like four hours after I got them pierced. I'm so smart like that.
I'm glad that you called me last night. it made me cry and smile all in the same moment. I hope everything works out.
happy birthday shaina, even though you're internet deprived and probably won't read this.
do I push people away? just wondering.
I went to my aunt's baby shower today... yeah it was definitely way boring... but anyway, I've been thinking lately that I'm not sure I want to have kids. I mean, I definitely do because I like (some) kids, but I think I might adopt. maybe it's just that I'm 16 and somewhat immature, but something about the whole process of childbirth really bothers me. this may sound kind of terrible, but I always think of being pregnant as being somewhat helpless and vulnerable. I don't want to feel that way about myself. maybe I'll mature later on and change my mind, but I really feel like I don't think I'll ever go through all that. so I was attempting to explain this to my mom, and she gave me a bunch of weird looks and told me I was really vain. oh.
so this bracelet I've been wearing that I found in my parents' room a month or so ago... my grandma told me today it was from her brother, and was made from parts of an airplane. haha I'm a dork for thinking that's cool.
speaking of jewelry, I finally got second earring holes, nine years after I first got my ears pierced. one side is perfectly fine, the other is way infected. they probably wouldn't be infected at all, it's just that the original earrings were big and funny looking, so I decided to change them like four hours after I got them pierced. I'm so smart like that.
I'm glad that you called me last night. it made me cry and smile all in the same moment. I hope everything works out.
happy birthday shaina, even though you're internet deprived and probably won't read this.
do I push people away? just wondering.