Coyote Blue
According to Christopher Moore, when everything is going right in your life and you're totally stressed out because you're afraid you might lose it, that means you're Coyote Blue. That seems to be my state these days. I've got a beautiful, healthy, happy, alert baby, and I'm constantly paranoid that something is going to go wrong. It's as if I've got no business being this lucky when there are so many horrible diseases, syndromes, and conditions out there. Admittedly, he did get RSV, so his health hasn't been perfect, but he's recovering beautifully, and all does seem to be well. When will I stop staying awake at night listening to his breathing, thinking that with all the good fortune in our lives, surely SIDS or some such is lurking around the corner waiting to even the score. I know probability doesn't work that way, but I can't help worrying. Maybe this is just what it's like being a parent.