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As I sit here watching the number of people on my msn dwindle offline
i realize along with them my sanity is slowly disappearing
there are still ties that hold me down, that bar me from my new found goal
however this is something i cannot help with, it is the demon inside me trying to rip my soul assunder
should i break the shackles and let it loose on my persona? No that would be wrong, it would hurt all around me, and more shall i be tossed into the pit of lonelyness
this is a hard demon to destroy , after a long nested stay...
i dont know how long i will last
fighting it off while it hurts soo much
sorry for all those reading who are annoyed with this whole situation,
but it will end, so soon i will not have to worry, my mind will be busy and with me ditracted it wont think of the agony
it will be gone along with her, hahahahaha....hopefully, she will leave and chances are i will not see her face to face for over a year, sure there will be brief convos on msn, i wish something could have happened, but before she leaves i am hoping that i can say a final goodbye, so along with her i can cast of these feelings and finally move on...
i realize along with them my sanity is slowly disappearing
there are still ties that hold me down, that bar me from my new found goal
however this is something i cannot help with, it is the demon inside me trying to rip my soul assunder
should i break the shackles and let it loose on my persona? No that would be wrong, it would hurt all around me, and more shall i be tossed into the pit of lonelyness
this is a hard demon to destroy , after a long nested stay...
i dont know how long i will last
fighting it off while it hurts soo much
sorry for all those reading who are annoyed with this whole situation,
but it will end, so soon i will not have to worry, my mind will be busy and with me ditracted it wont think of the agony
it will be gone along with her, hahahahaha....hopefully, she will leave and chances are i will not see her face to face for over a year, sure there will be brief convos on msn, i wish something could have happened, but before she leaves i am hoping that i can say a final goodbye, so along with her i can cast of these feelings and finally move on...