all great movments require a few martyrs.
Hello everyone, and a super hello to my readers =3. How are you all doing? Whew....right so lets get this entry cracking.
Not much has happend in the last three weeks that I hav'nt allready mentioned. And yes I am ok all....well at least I think so...for some odd reason after the whole incident, my hearts been having heart murmur's quite often. But alas I shall not know until I go to a doctors office, which cannot be for awhile until I gain medical.
You know it's funny, in my priesthood meeting, we all were told to look upon our past relationships and find what went wrong. Sad to say when I look back at them, all the break-up's were my fault, right down to the letter.
Like with fallon, that was just a F.W.B..
Kirsten, I was a jumping to clusions clingy annoying guy.
Mindy, that never went anywhere due to her being friends with fallon, and yes it is true, girls do share EVERYTHING O.x;
Lexy....well I liked her but the age diffarence was just to far apart, her mom did'nt like that O.O;;
Asheigh was....she was cool and awesome, but we were too alike and that seems to allways conflict with girls I like. Also seemed like a F.W.B.
But the two I regret messing up the most was....
cat and jenn. I fucked up so bad that I was punishing myself for quite a while. Here's the lowdown.
Cat = I met her two years ago at sakura con and we had a blast, after the dating game I asked her out. She said yes... But my mistake laid in the same place..... I thought she lost intrest in the date and did'nt want to talk to me. So my stupid ass started assumeing and I went and asked out...
Jenn = she is cat's friend and wrote me a letter saying she might have feelings for me, so I got stupid and left cat after assumeing the wrong thing. We hung out and had fun but once again I got a little too clingy and also ...well I acted like a total whiny kid to her, I was not mature at all.
Now what really sucks is me and jenn talked to cat at her party. And I found out she was just busy and all and that she did have feeling for me, but I was with jenn at that time, so huge blow to me. I acted like such an attention whore and a whiny loser and a total dumbass who assumed. But alas I looked back on these and found out somthing... I have learned life and relationship lessons through out these and have gained experience. So maybe I will be able to make the love of my life totally happy ^_^
In other news (/flashback) I just finished putting up shelfs and drilling holes with a power drill at the poulsbo wal-mart =3 I actully love this job, best labor ready one to date =] totday I am gonna get a new CD player and the slipknot CD, I listend to two of their songs and was like FUCK I want this CD <3 I really love what hot topic stocks now, they carry naruto and sonic merchendise =3 so it's all awesome now =D
For some odd reason I am uber'ly hooked onto animal crossing x.O I have been playing that like mad, I also started playing legend of legaia. I LOVE that game, I think I might try to pull either vhan or gala =D the music is awesome too =3
I will have my own place in janurary, but I am gonna have to bust some serious ass in work wise in december O.o but hey I'll be able to get some things for myself too ^_^
I think that's all, so everyone please invite me to gatherings and events, im bored in the later part of the day =( well see ya'all later, this is strider signing out.
Not much has happend in the last three weeks that I hav'nt allready mentioned. And yes I am ok all....well at least I think so...for some odd reason after the whole incident, my hearts been having heart murmur's quite often. But alas I shall not know until I go to a doctors office, which cannot be for awhile until I gain medical.
You know it's funny, in my priesthood meeting, we all were told to look upon our past relationships and find what went wrong. Sad to say when I look back at them, all the break-up's were my fault, right down to the letter.
Like with fallon, that was just a F.W.B..
Kirsten, I was a jumping to clusions clingy annoying guy.
Mindy, that never went anywhere due to her being friends with fallon, and yes it is true, girls do share EVERYTHING O.x;
Lexy....well I liked her but the age diffarence was just to far apart, her mom did'nt like that O.O;;
Asheigh was....she was cool and awesome, but we were too alike and that seems to allways conflict with girls I like. Also seemed like a F.W.B.
But the two I regret messing up the most was....
cat and jenn. I fucked up so bad that I was punishing myself for quite a while. Here's the lowdown.
Cat = I met her two years ago at sakura con and we had a blast, after the dating game I asked her out. She said yes... But my mistake laid in the same place..... I thought she lost intrest in the date and did'nt want to talk to me. So my stupid ass started assumeing and I went and asked out...
Jenn = she is cat's friend and wrote me a letter saying she might have feelings for me, so I got stupid and left cat after assumeing the wrong thing. We hung out and had fun but once again I got a little too clingy and also ...well I acted like a total whiny kid to her, I was not mature at all.
Now what really sucks is me and jenn talked to cat at her party. And I found out she was just busy and all and that she did have feeling for me, but I was with jenn at that time, so huge blow to me. I acted like such an attention whore and a whiny loser and a total dumbass who assumed. But alas I looked back on these and found out somthing... I have learned life and relationship lessons through out these and have gained experience. So maybe I will be able to make the love of my life totally happy ^_^
In other news (/flashback) I just finished putting up shelfs and drilling holes with a power drill at the poulsbo wal-mart =3 I actully love this job, best labor ready one to date =] totday I am gonna get a new CD player and the slipknot CD, I listend to two of their songs and was like FUCK I want this CD <3 I really love what hot topic stocks now, they carry naruto and sonic merchendise =3 so it's all awesome now =D
For some odd reason I am uber'ly hooked onto animal crossing x.O I have been playing that like mad, I also started playing legend of legaia. I LOVE that game, I think I might try to pull either vhan or gala =D the music is awesome too =3
I will have my own place in janurary, but I am gonna have to bust some serious ass in work wise in december O.o but hey I'll be able to get some things for myself too ^_^
I think that's all, so everyone please invite me to gatherings and events, im bored in the later part of the day =( well see ya'all later, this is strider signing out.