Wow...they've changed up LJ since the last time I was on it!
So, yeah. I must go ahead and say that I am deathly sick...homesick. I miss my mom and grandma and sister so much. I miss Joshie and Lauren Misko and Trini and all of my friends. It's really getting to me lately. I did find out, however, that my mom and sister and possibly grandmother are coming up to spend thanksgiving/my birthday with us!! I'm
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You're right, I never really did know the real you. Had I known her, I wouldnt have wasted my time on such a lying, inconsiderate person.
All you did was love me? Wow, I hope you never love anyone ever again.
Still hurts to hear my name? Bullshit. Get over it.
Talking to me the other day? I didnt even say much of anything. And if you JUST THEN realized how much I hate you, then you need to check back to when I told you face to face to GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE AND LEAVE ME ALONE!
Not sure why? Here's a few reasons...You said you loved me....me the person not me the girl, however you broke up with me to be straight...straight with LAURA...STRAIGHT BETWEEN HER FUCKING LEGS. Straight into BOTH of you lying to me and telling me that NOTHING was going on...like I was some kind of fucking fool. Straight into woman after woman after woman. Hmm...kind of makes everything you said prior to these engagements either a lie or a contradiction to your actions. Stop trying to victimize yourself with the BULLSHIT lines like "I didnt expect anything to happen...it just sort of...happened between me and_______" BULLSHIT AGAIN! Because after the first two or three times, that excuse gets old. You're a lesbian Noelle. Stop trying to sugar coat it and make it into something else.
I know I hurt you....I KNOW I HURT YOU I KNOW I HURT YOU I KNOW I HURT YOU....HOW MANY MORE TIMES DO I HAVE TO HEAR IT? IT DOESNT MEAN SHIT TO ME!! IF YOU KNEW THEN WHY DID YOU PERSIST IN DOING IT OVER THE COURSE OF 6 MONTHS +?
Guilt every day? Hah! If you think about me that much then dont you think it's unfair to Heather?
All you wanted was my friendship? All you fucking wanted was to have your cake and eat it too. You didnt want to acknowledge the fact that I had gotten to the point where I didnt need you. At which point you started to make yourself a part of my life through the things and people that had nothing to do with you...AKA Danielle and the mafia. YOU DID NOT AND PROBABLY STILL DONT know the line between friendship and relationship. Or, rather, friendship and fucking with my head and emotions. How do you think it felt to be broken up and fucking you on that couch that night in the old apartment....do you not remember me BAWLING my eyes out because I loved you so much that it hurt me inside and out to even kiss you. That I wanted you so much that at that moment it hurt to breathe. Yeah...then after that, your touches and hugs and kisses and glances and comments and all that shit....how were we supposed to be friends?
You're right about one thing, though. This is not the Lindsay you knew. This is the Lindsay that you turned me into. Callous, cold and just dont give much of a shit about you or what happens to you. I'm over your guilt trips and explanations. I'm over you bringing your family into this and lying about Zoelle asking about me and all of that. It doesnt matter. All this is for you is a bruise to your ego because...SOMEONE DOESNT FUCKING LIKE YOU. And for you to take what Lauren said and make all of this out of it shows me that you're still the selfish egotistical bitch that left me way back when.
Go fuck yourself Noelle and find someone else to make miserable. It's not working for me anymore.
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