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Things aren't so good right now. My mom is being really gay. She asked me to drive around her love interest tomorrow and run errands for him. He can't drive because hes a fucking alcoholic and has his license suspended. Hes a real fucking winner. The sad thing is, hes a cool guy. I don't mind him at all, but when it comes to him and my mom, I obviously won't accept him. But back on topic, I try explaining to her "hey, I've had plans for four days now, plus I want to hang out with my friend who is moving away this weekend." Instead of understanding, she gets pissed at me. So I get pissed at her. I think I even told her to "move into his house so she wouldn't have to keep on choosing him over me, and you'd be more happy over there anyway" or something along those lines. It was really dramatic. All she would say was "I'm offended that you would call him that," and gave no explination. Then she wouldnt' say anything, almost as if she knew I was right and couldn't think of anything to say. I'd say on the average day she talks to him more than she talks/sees me. Friends don't go to Hawaii alone twice in one year. I don't think its unreasonable for me to not want to have anything to do with someone who I don't deem worthy. I want her to be happy, and I know I'll never think any man in her life is half the person my dad was. This guy is just bad news for her. Of course shes looking at me like I'm the bad guy here who is jealous that someone else is getting her attention. Maybe thats true, I don't know. I do know that being pissed off at really the only person I have in the world isn't a good thing. On top of that, I don't want to play hockey anymore. I don't want to fucking go to Marist anymore. I don't really want to do a lot of things anymore. I think my life is lacking a purpose for the first real time. Then I compare me feeling bad for myself to you being in your situation and I feel like I'm such a piece of shit sometimes. Sorry about last night. I should have stayed home and talked to you, I would have had a better time doing that anyway.