Jan 11, 2005 20:11
Well today was bad. I found out that i have no chance for the team and i hate myself for that. I know what i am capable of and i need to apply myself. I have let my family and friends down and i lost some trust from some very important people. Well school was normal and i acually paid attention and learned some stuff. After school was the scary part my FATHER the person that intemadates me the most. Well the 1st thing he said to me is that if i get an attitude while he was hear that he would do something to me to want me to call the police, and he would dial the phone for me. Well we talked about alot that i need to change. I had noone to talk today and i knew i could talk to my dad he is always there and i love him. He just told me reality and that when my life isent going well neither is his and i do affect him with my school work and that me getting kicked off the soccer team hurts him too. Alls he wants is for me to succeed. My new life will start tom wether anyone believes me or not, she has removed herself from me and it is a reality check.
but i love that girl nomatter what