Say it in your own way, I know you wish we had stayed
I did shrooms twice this weekend and I asked a couple people if I'm weird. The response I got was that I am unanimously abnormal and the way I look at things and the conclusions I make and just who I am is really abnormal. Great. So not only am I unsucessful, piss off the people closest to me constantly, but I'm a weirdo too.
Also realized that the reason I never do anything about anything is becuase I think I'm not going to amount to anything. Really. That's the reason. Which now that I've conciously realized this I'm not sure that it makes it any easier for me to get a job or start doing something good for myself. All this medication + self-medication is making me sick.
I got hit with a random pang of lonliness and depression yesterday. I sat outside by the embers of a fire alone smoking a cigarette and thinking about how I hate this town and I want to leave it as smoke billowed around me, burning my eyes. Listening to Birdie Hilltop and kicking myself for being alive.
I asked her about her. She said she wanted to leave too. But where would either of us go? We wouldn't go together. I wouldn't want to go together unless maybe she was someone else. She left me by the fire and I continued to not be understood.
i miss you addison
Also realized that the reason I never do anything about anything is becuase I think I'm not going to amount to anything. Really. That's the reason. Which now that I've conciously realized this I'm not sure that it makes it any easier for me to get a job or start doing something good for myself. All this medication + self-medication is making me sick.
I got hit with a random pang of lonliness and depression yesterday. I sat outside by the embers of a fire alone smoking a cigarette and thinking about how I hate this town and I want to leave it as smoke billowed around me, burning my eyes. Listening to Birdie Hilltop and kicking myself for being alive.
I asked her about her. She said she wanted to leave too. But where would either of us go? We wouldn't go together. I wouldn't want to go together unless maybe she was someone else. She left me by the fire and I continued to not be understood.
i miss you addison