MOTHERS
Ok peoples I am really really really really really pissed off!
This is what happened my mother saw my bank statement and saw that I actually have money in there so she sees the need to fix that to where I have no money. I think she knows that I want to get out of her damn house, but she doesn't want me to go who else will pick up after her and her kids. So after she sees this she pretends it was an accident... Whatever maybe opening it was but the rest wasn't she was just fucking curious and wanted to rule my life. But she saw none the less and I can't change that. Well I needed some books for english and she said she would buy them now she wont... ok... I can deal with that then she said that she needs 100 dollars from me for school, then 100 for other things pretty much just for me to live there. WTF! She said that if I lived in that house she would pay for school and that I wont have to pay rent. I dont mind helping out but she is only doing it because she knows that I want to get out of the damn house. That is not fair! I know I probably sound like a spoiled brat. But damn I am tired or having to take care of her and the girls. I am 19 fucking years old I want to have fun I want a life. I dont want to have to beg just to leave the house, or always ask my mom "Have you taken your meds" I shouldnt have to watch her all the time to make sure she is not eating sugar, I shouldn't have to always wash clothes/dishes, clean the house that is her job. Like I said I dont mind helping out but that is HELPING not doing all of it my damn self. I am just really angry with her right now. I want to get out of my house sooo bad... Last night I had to go outside to read cuz she wouldnt just shut the fuck up. All I wanted to do was read for english and I cant even do that. So I had to go sit with Jack just to read. I shouldnt have to be banished to the back yard with the dog just to do my homework. NOT COOL! That is one of the reasons I want to live on my own... I cant wait till I get my life together and get out... I think it freaked her out also cuz I have been putting things in plastic bins and getting rid of a lot of stuff... she think I am already packing. Right now I dont care what she thinks... I just want to get away from her, I love her but I cant stand her. And today I have to go to my Grandmas cuz it is my cousins b-day. I love my cousin but I cant stand my aunt anymore she pretty much called me a bitch the other day and I dont want to be around her. She makes me cry everytime I go over there. I am sooo miserable and pissed off right now I dont know if I can handle it much longer I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.
This is what happened my mother saw my bank statement and saw that I actually have money in there so she sees the need to fix that to where I have no money. I think she knows that I want to get out of her damn house, but she doesn't want me to go who else will pick up after her and her kids. So after she sees this she pretends it was an accident... Whatever maybe opening it was but the rest wasn't she was just fucking curious and wanted to rule my life. But she saw none the less and I can't change that. Well I needed some books for english and she said she would buy them now she wont... ok... I can deal with that then she said that she needs 100 dollars from me for school, then 100 for other things pretty much just for me to live there. WTF! She said that if I lived in that house she would pay for school and that I wont have to pay rent. I dont mind helping out but she is only doing it because she knows that I want to get out of the damn house. That is not fair! I know I probably sound like a spoiled brat. But damn I am tired or having to take care of her and the girls. I am 19 fucking years old I want to have fun I want a life. I dont want to have to beg just to leave the house, or always ask my mom "Have you taken your meds" I shouldnt have to watch her all the time to make sure she is not eating sugar, I shouldn't have to always wash clothes/dishes, clean the house that is her job. Like I said I dont mind helping out but that is HELPING not doing all of it my damn self. I am just really angry with her right now. I want to get out of my house sooo bad... Last night I had to go outside to read cuz she wouldnt just shut the fuck up. All I wanted to do was read for english and I cant even do that. So I had to go sit with Jack just to read. I shouldnt have to be banished to the back yard with the dog just to do my homework. NOT COOL! That is one of the reasons I want to live on my own... I cant wait till I get my life together and get out... I think it freaked her out also cuz I have been putting things in plastic bins and getting rid of a lot of stuff... she think I am already packing. Right now I dont care what she thinks... I just want to get away from her, I love her but I cant stand her. And today I have to go to my Grandmas cuz it is my cousins b-day. I love my cousin but I cant stand my aunt anymore she pretty much called me a bitch the other day and I dont want to be around her. She makes me cry everytime I go over there. I am sooo miserable and pissed off right now I dont know if I can handle it much longer I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.