Mar 06, 2004 13:20
cough cough....
i cant breathe. i need to quit butts.
semi tonight. i suppose i should be like everyone else and say "oh my god its gonna be so fun and im going to have the best time oh my god oh mygod.
sorry, cant do that
this thing is going to be so fuckin gay. why?
1) dressing up is gay
2)dancing is gay
3)school dances are gay
4)you cant get drunk
5)you cant get high
7) its a waste of money
8)its gay in all aspects.
but im going to make niki happy. i spent almost 200 dollars on this shit. you know how much drugs i could get with 200 dollars?
i dont care what she says, i aint going to my prom. i'd rather just go out and get fucked up on my own
and im in a shitty mood because of what happened last night. oh you dont know what happened last night?
niki and jackie thought it would be a wicked smart idea to get my little sister high, even though i said no and shit like 200 times because my sister is so dumb, she will get caught somehow, and then i will get kicked out because i was a bad influence on her.
its not thati dont want her to do drugs, i just dont want her to turn out like me. she is doing wicked good in school, and is being a good kid. i dont want hjer to end up a moron like me. i cant wake up and get out of bed without getting high. but no one listens to me. no one cares what i say. its my fuckin sister anyhow, i think she should listen to me when i tell niki i dont want MY SISTER to smoke pot. but like i said, no one listens to me.
so they fuckin did it anyhow and this i really cant understand, how niki could risk not being able to see me anymore due to my sister getting caught and telling my mother that niki smoked her up to get herself out of trouble. and niki i know you are going to read this because youre pretty much the olny one who reads this anyhow.
so all in all it was a shitty thing to do and im pissed off, even though i said i wasnt going to be.
i just dont get how she dosent listen to me EVER
it kills me. fuck this shit im gonna go have a butt and die a little inside
you know what? i give up. you guys can take my family, and fuck them all up. i dont care. i was just trying to watch out for my own fucking family, but i guess i cant do that either, so fuck it. you guys should go get joseph high. its better he starts smokin pot now with you guys than out with other people
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