dare i?

[streetwideriot]

this sucks bigtime. im fuckin pissed off. that kis steve died on valentines day. and i went to the wake last night. i never expected to see so many people there. it was really depressing, especially for niki.

niki isnt feeling well due to the death of steve, and she was taking out her anger on me. i was the one trying to comfort her and tell her everything is okay. but she fucking snaps on me every two seconds about shit. then she gets mad at me when i get mad at her for being a jerk.

my mother is giving me tons of shit on top of this and it aint helping. now today i have to see my dad and he wants to talk about all the things that have happened in the past few weeks which is gonna suck. then i have to spent the last weekend of vacation with him in new hampshire.

i am about reeady to snuff it.

im tired of feeling this way, and im tired of shitty things happening all the time.

so im thinkin if i end it. will i be okay like steve is? will i be at peace and not feeling the pain of life and the constant shit stream that it has given me?

maybe i feel this way because i havent taken my anti depressants in like a month. but i dont know. somebody give me some answers here