Hood up for shame.
I have written this exact post too many times in too many places, but.
My daily kicks are Nikes now. I mainly eat fast food that I can't afford, and sit on my ass anywhere from 8-20 hours a day. The summer will most likely be spent in St. Louis working for an NFL team because it is the safe thing to do, instead of working as a crew member on an indy film. Almost all the piercings are gone, and with my flesh colored plugs in my ears look more natural than without. Sometimes during my weekly (bi-weekly?) flights I see scenes of what I know to be incredible beauty and remember a time when I would have been left in awe at such a sight. The misanthropy is no longer playful, the interactions are no longer respectful, the affection is fleeting if at all. For ahwhile after I stopped caring I pretended to continue, I don't bother any more. Everything now is about being easy, about convenience. Nothing is sacred, nothing is worthwhile, nothing is worthy of pursuit. In light of that, money has become my sole goal. In summary I have become everything I didn't want to be in every area of my life. My vanity is drowning anything that might be left of substance in this profane skull.
My daily kicks are Nikes now. I mainly eat fast food that I can't afford, and sit on my ass anywhere from 8-20 hours a day. The summer will most likely be spent in St. Louis working for an NFL team because it is the safe thing to do, instead of working as a crew member on an indy film. Almost all the piercings are gone, and with my flesh colored plugs in my ears look more natural than without. Sometimes during my weekly (bi-weekly?) flights I see scenes of what I know to be incredible beauty and remember a time when I would have been left in awe at such a sight. The misanthropy is no longer playful, the interactions are no longer respectful, the affection is fleeting if at all. For ahwhile after I stopped caring I pretended to continue, I don't bother any more. Everything now is about being easy, about convenience. Nothing is sacred, nothing is worthwhile, nothing is worthy of pursuit. In light of that, money has become my sole goal. In summary I have become everything I didn't want to be in every area of my life. My vanity is drowning anything that might be left of substance in this profane skull.