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i will not be upset by a cancelled night out ... even if this is the second time we have had to push dates back ... i will not be upset ( I AM UPSET! BLARGH! )
York is doing that thing to me again, that thing where i feel like i am at home, but then i feel like something is missing, i feel alone in a sea of faces that wouldnt care at all if i were to up and drown in them. As a theatre student i am surrounded by fake love, fake bodies and faces, fake relationships and bleeding hearts, and it does get to me sometimes.
I get soo many hugs a day, but sometimes i just feel cold, sometimes i dont even feel the person who is touching me.
I guess thats why i am so upset about tonight ... i find someone who can connect and i never get to see them.
OH well ... i will just keep getting ahead in my readings and assignments ... who needs genuine relationships when you can cram your face in homework about anceint egypt and health and safety for film and theatre!
York is doing that thing to me again, that thing where i feel like i am at home, but then i feel like something is missing, i feel alone in a sea of faces that wouldnt care at all if i were to up and drown in them. As a theatre student i am surrounded by fake love, fake bodies and faces, fake relationships and bleeding hearts, and it does get to me sometimes.
I get soo many hugs a day, but sometimes i just feel cold, sometimes i dont even feel the person who is touching me.
I guess thats why i am so upset about tonight ... i find someone who can connect and i never get to see them.
OH well ... i will just keep getting ahead in my readings and assignments ... who needs genuine relationships when you can cram your face in homework about anceint egypt and health and safety for film and theatre!