Random and Unfocused as the need to blog is delayed
It had been a year since I went to a funeral, and I was hoping it would be a little while longer until I had to again. But unfortunately a relative of mine passed away almost a year to the week of my cousin, last year.
I think I could go to any funeral and cry as if it was my own mother, father, or brother. The pain in people's face, the euology, the emotions in the church overwhelms me. Then I start to think about the meaning of life and look around to see all shapes and size of people that I do and do not know, the various stages of life they're in, their age in other words, and their life experience. What can we be proud of having accomplished if death knocks on our own door?
I try to live in the moment and be satisfied with my life all the time, but I leave too much to be desired. I live too much in the past and the future and about 1% is lived in the present. I think I would be dissapointed to open up to death one day and not having achieved what I wanted to. But what is it that I want really? I've had amazing life experience that some of my family members can only imagine having. I've met the love of my life at least 10 times, but I found my soulmate. I've had amazing friends but I've protected myself from most of them for what?
I'm about to start another chapter in my life, I'm really excited about it, but I want to make it as enriching as I possibly can. I need to enjoy my life more!
Is skipping my College graduation a mistake? I don't really think it's going to change anything. I'm trying to avoid, and I'm trying to move on. I don't see much potential there.
I'm hoping to blog more as I will be having lots of free time on my hands coming up.
I think I could go to any funeral and cry as if it was my own mother, father, or brother. The pain in people's face, the euology, the emotions in the church overwhelms me. Then I start to think about the meaning of life and look around to see all shapes and size of people that I do and do not know, the various stages of life they're in, their age in other words, and their life experience. What can we be proud of having accomplished if death knocks on our own door?
I try to live in the moment and be satisfied with my life all the time, but I leave too much to be desired. I live too much in the past and the future and about 1% is lived in the present. I think I would be dissapointed to open up to death one day and not having achieved what I wanted to. But what is it that I want really? I've had amazing life experience that some of my family members can only imagine having. I've met the love of my life at least 10 times, but I found my soulmate. I've had amazing friends but I've protected myself from most of them for what?
I'm about to start another chapter in my life, I'm really excited about it, but I want to make it as enriching as I possibly can. I need to enjoy my life more!
Is skipping my College graduation a mistake? I don't really think it's going to change anything. I'm trying to avoid, and I'm trying to move on. I don't see much potential there.
I'm hoping to blog more as I will be having lots of free time on my hands coming up.