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A year ago I was on top of the world....I'll tell you this much...it's been a long way down.
My stress levels are high enough that it is actually making me physically ill. I've wanted to vomit all day and I'm not sick...it's just the stress. Between the stuff at work, including putting in a 12.5 hour day on my birthday. The death in the family and my uncles and aunts realizing that their mortality is quickly approaching...especially how they lived so far. The large amounts of emotional stress this last weekend...that in itself is bad enough...without the rushed feeling I keep getting.
But it's never the fall...it's the sudden stop.
That and they have me on the pager rotation over 2 months ahead of schedule. I don't even have the required laptop yet...and I get the pager the last week of this month.
fuck.
My stress levels are high enough that it is actually making me physically ill. I've wanted to vomit all day and I'm not sick...it's just the stress. Between the stuff at work, including putting in a 12.5 hour day on my birthday. The death in the family and my uncles and aunts realizing that their mortality is quickly approaching...especially how they lived so far. The large amounts of emotional stress this last weekend...that in itself is bad enough...without the rushed feeling I keep getting.
Click to viewBut it's never the fall...it's the sudden stop.
That and they have me on the pager rotation over 2 months ahead of schedule. I don't even have the required laptop yet...and I get the pager the last week of this month.
fuck.